End of SAM

18/11/2013 The official day that my Pre-U have ended wow 2013 is coming to an end too. A lot have happen today too. Just after the last paper econ I went with my classmates to celebrate and thank our teachers for everything for the year it was a long late lunch haha and a great chat where I no longer have attachment to education to my lecturers but see them as a friend a mentor now learn the sides of them I never knew before and surprising them with knowledge I gain from my financial mentors it was awesome sharing session. Then while I drive home around 5PM it was quite a heavy traffic then I met with an accident knock into a lorry :( no effect at all to the lorry but my front bumper was quite damaged and the impact knock my body forward ouch luckily it wasn't too serious sorry city chan :( but my body sure is pain then I stop around Smk menjalara to check the damage and try knock back the bumper the moment when i get out and closing door another car knock my door from the side hitting me again surprise by it i stun and look at the driver the driver stop and keep sorry sorry sorry oh well then i see my door no damage ok ba, i proceed to mend my car well not so bad i guess? then ouch...the inside engine part some plastic break le and loss 2 of the screws oh well..sorry city chan i would fix you as soon as possible!
Then after reaching home have dinner around 7 30 pm i fetch my sis from ballet and send her home then i proceed to DPC to yum cha with miss Aggie my accounting teacher only to found out all my other classmates have FFK and only left me alone well ok then had a great sharing session with her and know more about her she really is a good teacher that know her students well even if she doesn't shows it and know her students weaknesses and strength although she does not shows it. She too was happy for me as I know what I want and notice my absence during the revision week well correct i was busy with silver malaysia and CAG and WIG events skip class often that time and have gain many valuable network and contacts she advice me on quite many things too haha really great full to have such a caring teacher I would definitely help her to protect her wealth with the things I can add value to her in the future when I learn more from Jonathan! Around 9 45 PM she had to go back her daughter sleeping time well that girl sure is cute always so silent today outside so hyper active! for some reason she invited me go to her house haha then Miss aggie told me you quite big ah she dont invite people de haha well after she hit me of course hmm I wonder why kids like to hit me?? I really look so good to bully? hit me they happy I act sakit then they like me why ah??haha i really wonder. Then she went home I take a short stroll at DPC to calm myself and have inner peace and look and the nice clear sky full moon it was a cooling night then I flashback all that have happen this year and smile while tears rolls down many thing have happen over these eleven months I have grown and finally taken action towards the dream I always talk about my network expanded suddenly with like minded peoples it was a mind blowing event in my life by far and also inspire me further to move forward as these young people can achieve success by adding value to others at their young age I too will do that One day VG industry would come true no definitely not immediately but definitely at my pace :) Now Im trying to reduce my attachments I really had too much attachments before to people that do not appreciates me it is true what jon and candice say Its no use teaching a pig to sing unless a pig would like to sing I cannot force others to do unless they themselves would like to. People come and go some people are meant to leave you when your paths divides but on the way you will meet more people that would help you the and you will help them to become what you want to be My many binding attachments in the earlier year have cause me much pain and grieve because i mind too much and is too much attach to people with different ideas and purpose that does not appreciates me i am wasting their time and mine but now i am slowly cutting it down this attachments to gain more power in my life is a give and take relationship it always must be a equivalent exchange orelese the balance and bond will definitely break sooner or later But no matter how I still will appreciate everything because without the past there will be no me Victor today I was shape through these I accept this is what I want and this future I want to reach and create that I take action to do what I do now I dont regret it I accept whatever is too come and strive forward Remember no one can help you if you do not want to help yourself if anyone approach me for help I am more than happy to provide it if you are willing and wish to help yourself :) Onwards and all the best to everyone work hard and smart! :D

The person you want to be

there is a saying of who you hang out with the most will determine what you will become in the future this is environment affect its a common thing herd instinct if you find there is a gap in your life a hole in your heart then go out and seek the problem and find the way to solve it do not be afraid of making mistakes or failures this will grow us to what we want to be. every obstacles that are there to hinder us bring us 1 step backward but raise our knowledge to move 2 step forward I believe that with true willpower and faith anyone can succeed in their own ways how far depends on how much they limit their mind. You and I are all the same humans we will have times where we will feel down and this are the times we should seek positive energy to boost ourselves from the hole in the heart to prepare to move further. Most importantly no matter how we think and how we are we must always never forget of the people around us who are those who are there for you regardless of good or bad times and those who are not appreciate the simple things in life only then you can move far and stay humble :)

To me

Question that have a uncertain or hidden truth...very well I'll answer for myself then.

You are someone irreplaceable someone who I care deeply that I'll do anything even if it is stupid or at a disadvantage for me...I'll sacrifice for you...someone whom...I fall deeply...like a idiot...

Nothing last forever...if we take everything for granted..we will regret it deeply when its gone...care for everything around us and appreciate them. you never know how important it's worth is until you lose it.

A shattered reality...A lose past...A world I no longer knew.

Inside it is empty...outside a mask of lies...and so I walked away...I cant take it.

So...I made a decision one that will change my world...and embrace the future.

unrequited love.

Character

So this is what it is meant by "Birds of a feather flock together".

When the mindset changes the world changes...

Sacrifice must be made in order for a change

Will i be forgotten? And dissapear in the shadows? Left all alone again...the transition.

Dont leave me too will you?

Character never forget to have that and always have a clear sight of your objectives.

Move forward...on the way new lights and oppotunity shall present itself.

Responsibility to one selves

We must always be responsible for the choices and action we take not anyone else but ourselves. You can make it here You can make it out it is a two way relation simple and easy...ask your conciousness and you will find the answer.
I wont not say is right or wrong...no matter what is your choice I will respect. you have my blessing whichever path you choose. Responsibility and respect to our selves and to others are very important never forget that...as we grow older...this burden will become heavier...all the best....it pains me but this is life....we must accept coming and goings as part of it...nothing last forever...even though is cowardly...I wish...I could run and go into a long slumber...to rest...a lot have happen...I'm really tired now....both mentally and physically...a war awaits me...ahead...let me crumble now...and regain strength before its too late...sorry...but the things I learned this few days...yeah...and have to turn all this into a driving power to move forward...cant look back...need to chase ahead...but I wish....yeah accept the passing when the times has come...do not hold back...accept the truth...and smile...That alone is enough.. :)

Resurrection (Chapter Fear)

Its happening again...How did I keep ending up in a half asleep half awake state recently?....Its that dream again....Maybe its due too being half awake I can remember it clearly....tat feeling...like being watch...being cursed...It all started after that genting crash....I have fear to drive my car alone now.....always checking the horn...and highlight...it seems so real....always end when I manage to break...but...every time it happens I always awoken suddenly with my heart beating extremely fast that is hurts...what is this feeling....I'm...really scare...it feels like it is directly in me...showing me....it does not feel like I'm latched on too...but it feels like being cursed....It hurts....I'm really scare...this is fear...help...Is this a physiological disorder or supernatural at play....I dunno...

Resurrection (Extra chapter moonlight memoria)

The sky tonight is a very clear one as all the stars are abnormally beautiful yet visible. But the one that kept me questioning was the moon...it was abnormally mesmerising yet sinister...what is this feeling in my chest my heart?...i woke up not knowing what i dreamt for the past few days...yet it seem so real...like i was waking from a dreams dream?and yet nothing remains...this feeling...hmm...

I have no idea...but..i am sure of a thing...that is something missing I'm forgetting something very important but what is it?this feeling...as i look up to the distant sky...unable to shake off the heavy feeling...yet i am content...seems like it was right..if we choose to do so and wish to do so...the result will be what we wanted so everything is really in our head...hehe...i hope...i can see clearly...what is it about...i want to now the truth...what is it that i have forgotten...living in the present and moving forward seeing the possibilities and opportunities around...optimistic yet sensitive. Put full trust orelse dun trust at all just like the moon that shines. :)

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