never was...

my heart just cant give me an answer....i guess i really do have nothing from the beginning~then what am i now?i really want to find myself...

october 9th 2007....exactly 5 years ago...on a stormy midnight...the same as the one now....sure brings back memories...haiz...wonder how are you doing now....

where we stand

ho~~October already just like tat time slips away from me once again...
A year seems to fly eh!? :P form 4~so quick...well what to do?!human nature i guess?
We never seems to grasp time all the time and is always chasing behind it...
But no matter how fast we try to catch up,time is always still ahead of us teasing us laughing at us...what to do??
There is always past we want to desperately forget , There is future we want to avoid,
what about the present then?!What are we doing with the present then?
There may have been a reason?or there may not have been one?
There may be times that we seem really unfortunate to others,and times that we may carry a deep wound in our hearts...
But where we are standing today isn't that bad,is it? =)
I am still afraid of it,but i don't feel about it =)

P.S. Oh and yeah!!finally is October fall animes!!is a month feel wif awesome animes ah!!! ^^ DOKI DOKI

ningen :)

Humans don't learn or achieve enlightenment easily.
That's why as humans we will make mistakes.
But that's why we cry,laugh,and fall in love. :P

Escape

The rhythm of midnight
I'll indulge as I like to the beat that can't stop, dancing till morning
Casting aside anything and everything
Let these vanishing feelings look into your lying face

Frightened yesterday, I'll just keep dancing now
I want something that I can't see
I can't become irritated and hide
I'll show my pouting face to this one person

Even if I continue struggling, I am bound to your asburd morals like this.
Only time is meaningless, it merely passes by, and nothing changes

The aspirations I had always painted are distant now but throwing away the past can't reset it
The ideals I'm searching for, the attacking reality, the night's anguish still continues

All that the night's light is illuminating is rolled up by the palm of my hand
So that it will ridicule morning. Nobody realizes it

Someday while the wings, which had begun to flap inside my dreams, wander about the darkness,
I'll search for an exit
I can't stop loving you, I can't push away these feelings starting to overflow
If they pile up, my dreams won't come true. The unchanging morning comes again

The encounter which was too late, the separation which was too early,
I don't want them to become anyone's fault
If I have just one wish, please, let me return to that time

I will drop into the night so that I can be guided by the moonlight
Surely I can't escape from the endless game with no goal

My flapping wings from inside my dream that day will one day surely struggle on
To the place I'll look for only me
Can't escape from my life, I'll look for a shining light without the ability to escape
While I'm confused and losing my way, the unchanging morning breaks

My flapping wings from inside my dream that day will one day surely struggle on
To the place I'll look for only me
Can't escape from my life, I'll look for a shining light without the ability to escape
While I'm confused and losing my way, I welcome the new morning <3 awesome ><

Why?

Why cant anyone understand me...
Why cant they just accept the other me...
I am who i am without that other me i wont be myself anymore...
Haiz...I just don't want to lose people who are precious to me...
This bond...i don't want it to break...

anonymous

There is no real truth in this world...
Show me a real goal worth living for...