sleepless night@@

i lie on the bed for almost 4 hours ++ and i still cant fall asleep~~god why cant you just let me sleep plss :( and now its 2 30 am d== around 5 hours n half i shall take spm >< may the luck be wif me now~try to slp again orelse i be lying on bed unable to sleep again @@

Save you from anything

I know one power is limited but with what i can do i will aim for the top!
I know i can't save everyone but I must at least save those I hold dear to me! 

for this I push on towards my goals and my selfish desires to attain this future
Save you from anything!

Lonely night

A rainy night such as the one tonight..combine with some events...I really cant help myself but let tears roll down my face...Is not because I realise how close SPM is...but how close is it to be seperated from the people that we take for granted everyday...just a short period of time left and we can't be in that classroom doing stupid stuff or even sitting there listening to a boring teacher teach~and saturday a graduation event~reality comes and slap me in the face...I thought I had already resolve what is to come...but it appears I am still human it still pains me when you see everything reality really isn't fair..but we can only deal with it...I really feel like finding someone and hug them real tightly and say how much i love them...there is so many troubles to deal with recently...but i could not express it out...taking everything out on myself...I really ain't a good leader...This darkness...This coldness...This sadness...This loneliness...Is gonna be a long night of self reflecting...onwards to the uncertain waves in the future as i silently watch the night rain with tears...

How insignificant is one's power...

Today was a nice day something worth to keep in memories again >< crazy ppl can frm paradigm mall shopping till time square wow...wat a change xD...took sometime to chose someone present...but i hope she like it xD......haiz...then later on...on a train felt so useless....I cant believe we dint even notice it...so useless...I really feel Im a failure for a man...how can i let tat happen to ppl tat are close to me?then it is revealed thr are more tat are close to me that face the same thing...i feel ashamed not noticing it not knowing it....haiz....is it why they all leave me?cause im useless?failure as a man and a mummy....Knowing the world it is now like tat...yet i dint expect it to happen to people close to me...haiz...I really have to be more observant...feel sorry for my girls......I only wish to have the power to protect....the ppl close to me...Time draws near to the end....I wonder if i will still be me when i rush on my own path tat im ready to set out...i hope i could still have all this wonder full friends...i wan to protect this bonds...for the road ahead i walk wont be an easy one to attain true freedom...I will walk the path of those success full people's they inspire me....i hope this path wont cut my bonds wif all my current friends...school is ending soon...so far yet so near...This is wat it meant by growing up isn't it??sometime i wish i could think more easier...i feel my mindset and thinking are so far from the peoples around me now...how very fragile i am... :(...I close my eyes as i wish for it to end a happy end...

wait??for miracle?!muri==

Owh so late d 1 more hour to pass this day what am i still waiting for??miracle i guess??just ask her straight??whether she remembers??tried and kenna ignore sad life~ >< wonder why I still remember them all this special day's...maybe cause i cant let go of the past??na juz a lesson from the past i guess and as a memento....well i guess only time can heal...juz like my star sign suggest...gemini..6-8 months >< despite the fact we do not look serious and do not care we are quite an loyally dumb dogs i guess?haha xD.

worry too much??

Recently there seems to be so much problems~ especially my friends is not my problem but its like i still try to solve it==worrying too much~Ah why in this mortal world there is so many humanly troubles??because we're humans?? You dont say?? == Sometimes I really wish if I meet a dead reaper i will gladly sacrifice myself to bless everyone around me~and begone from existence ><. Tat's cause i dont believe in unrequited gains everything have its own price nothing is free tat's my concept what comes around goes around this loop   is obey by all how boring life is~~

Cannot find...

Find the strength to forget you...Cannot find.


Find the way to detain you...Cannot find.


Find someone to replace you...Cannot find. 


Find the one to be like you...Cannot find.