Eternal Slumber

The wish...The pain...The truth...If i could only close my eyes and fall into a eternal slumber...Somethings will never be appreciated until they are lost..memories lost...affection to insanity you do not know your own limits or powers till your push to your last leg...There are too much stress lately that have been building up inside me..but i continue to smile and move on hiding it...but push to my ends...even i will fall easily...Its really too pain to bear everything alone..why...when I need you you were never there...Am I so insignificant too you?
Loneliness darkness all alone I wish for a eternal slumber.

4 months

And so 2 weeks of holiday have ended and back to college there isn't really anything that have been changed but the thing that have change is that i've become more distant....how did I go through the past 5months? I really very tired le..i could't care less about it anymore cant trust anyone here...very well...they force me..
The only thing I know is there is 4 month left and I have to make it worthwhile time to push tat result. Result is not everything but it is a stepping stone in life to go further...I'll just go by my simple and easy rule from now on too tired too waste anymore time and energy...you respect me I respect you settle don't give me anymore trouble. And so my war begins...haha 2 weeks of craziness they are still the best after all who shape us for who we are are probably our high school life and time that are the truest and purest not bad. From then on we push on...we all know who are the angels and devils around us in the end it all depends on how we balance it. Wishing everyone the best in their journey

Rise and set

PD although nothing much special happen but something inside of me changes...As i watch the sunrise and sunset on that day...something trigger in my heart..."Whatever goes up will always come down"...Is it true?...well most of the time yes....Moving ahead run with time now and begin.
I do not want to artificially prolong anything that was meant to happen only more suffering would come after that short amount of prolong...I accept it as it is..well its not so bad after all I have no regrets so may fate takes its course I'll follow it and make the best out of it. Its the true goodbye live well and chase after dreams Lets all fight for our dreams,beliefs,faiths

Suddenly all of sudden time become so short morning to night seems like nothing=  = too much thing to do not enough time to complete...dang...and keep raining at night and especially when I enter my car the rain gets even bigger...I gonna get sick...O wait..I'm already sick= =....2 days under the rain....this is the weirdest flu..i ever had...losing sound soon?maybe? well appear majority starting school glad to hear>

Ame no namida...

Its 1 am 4th of may...another day has pass and 4 days have pass since entering may..wow
Its been hmm i think 30+o i haven slept?hmm..3rd of may i come to face my truth of current flow of time and come to accept it...At long last i muster courage to move on...for i know there isn't any real truth exist for a terrible person like me...although it hurts to confront the truth...but...at least..i come to a term to myself...
Silently as to my heart beat I notice...how irregular my heart beat is even in the dead of night...memories flash passes me...as tears..slowly flow out of my eye unconsciously...my heart aches...but...is not a kind of pain of sorrow...is a pain of acceptance...a familiar filling...I have..that I've been through a few times...this is one of the most pain one...because the feeling of hang in the middle of no truths...but I guess is a trial i must pass...well but it appears...mentally is familiar...but physically I'm not as in good condition as last time haha...but at least i pull it through...all the way to morning...my eyes are close but my brain and heart..continues it aches...but..i accept it..its my punishment. After i woke up...my eyes was blurry and quite bengkak but oh well><....ah geez...today whole day also rain...dangerous xia...:( another sleepless night?
I dunno?
No one knows how important or how great they are only the people around them that notice their brilliance :) your a great person...please do not condemn yourself any further its no one fault...I accept my foolish mistake as i face the truth...and ready to move on...I hope you will too... I still do care deeply for you...I will still be there for you to help if u ask or call for me :) your not alone remember ;) sorry for burdening you for so long..I know I rely on you way too much..it must have been inconvenient for you right? take care I wish the best for you.
Even the entire day cry as the title says...ame no namida...tears of the rain :') I pick up the mask and put it back on...ready to move forward once again...we are humans afterall...we fall...we hurt...we cry....we stand up...we move on :)
Sorry for all the troubles...Thank you for everything...

exist?perish?

Is there any meaning for my existence?...something jolted my mind...and this question haunts me....blank..hallow....why...why...this feeling...uselessness....yeah...perish.

Hold on believe

Although my whole time nowadays aren't bright and happy but there is still good times...but in this up's and down's of live..this is one of the dark years where i endure the down's...frankly speaking...I don't really like it....but I cant do anything about it...this is discrimination...but..i continue to tell myself..u see the up soon u see it soon...i keep on holding on to this believe...soon...lucky i still have my beloved friends from high school....my dearest people whom i treasure