wait??for miracle?!muri==

Owh so late d 1 more hour to pass this day what am i still waiting for??miracle i guess??just ask her straight??whether she remembers??tried and kenna ignore sad life~ >< wonder why I still remember them all this special day's...maybe cause i cant let go of the past??na juz a lesson from the past i guess and as a memento....well i guess only time can heal...juz like my star sign suggest...gemini..6-8 months >< despite the fact we do not look serious and do not care we are quite an loyally dumb dogs i guess?haha xD.

worry too much??

Recently there seems to be so much problems~ especially my friends is not my problem but its like i still try to solve it==worrying too much~Ah why in this mortal world there is so many humanly troubles??because we're humans?? You dont say?? == Sometimes I really wish if I meet a dead reaper i will gladly sacrifice myself to bless everyone around me~and begone from existence ><. Tat's cause i dont believe in unrequited gains everything have its own price nothing is free tat's my concept what comes around goes around this loop   is obey by all how boring life is~~

Cannot find...

Find the strength to forget you...Cannot find.


Find the way to detain you...Cannot find.


Find someone to replace you...Cannot find. 


Find the one to be like you...Cannot find.

Everything..

So in the end my name is lai I get blame for the most stupidest things that ever existed~How stupid was i to even believe it is different they are all the same.Its all shattered broken i dont give a damn about it any more screw all i walk my own way from now on.when your ready i am more than welcome but tat's all Baka baka baka why i even believe...There is no such thing as truth in reality all i feel now is the anger to myself for being so dumb...even i am a human i got limits im way pass that now i cant control this emotion anymore...tsk...dumbness everything is a lie...I wan to end it quick and swift...plss..let it end...i beg of myself...

Mask~

Even I myself cant really understand or explain this feeling~.... but...I...just dont understand....why....why is it so confusing...so pain....yet...i could hide it~I dont understand anything anymore~...

dreams~hopes~foolishness..

Is loving truly and thinking for the future stupid??why....am I always abandoned for doing so..i do not understand....am I that of a failure as a boy??~...

Life so far , clean up doubts

Whether is the past or future what matters most is the present :D
Don't let the past or future waver you what matter most is NOW!!
Reality always hurts because they are cruel and life is unfair...
SO WHAT!?deal with it people who accept this fact shall see things ordinary people doesn't Thread your own destiny by making fate play in your favour ;) that is the way to live like a LOU SAI!!! HEll YEAH
Want to get anything done??don't do it yourself but make use of every possibility you can to effectively complete it ;)
For geniuses are not smart after they study , but they are smart before they study
Think it thoroughly and you will realize something missing.
That's how uncompleted we humans are xD