Even if everyone calls you a liar
Everyones hates you
And the world rejct you
I'll be by yours side
Because i trust u.

Hunger

So this year Famine 30 comes to an end with many nice memories and experience...very tiring too my eye can hardly open and my body is aching all over...T.T how to do tmr presentation??... dam..my stomach...feels awful....my bone like piercing my stomach with sudden movements...ouch...that bloody hurts...hope tmr be ok..wake up early to prepare for presentation (plan too) hope the slp miss out for the pass few days wont wear me out FIGHTO!!

Darkness within

I care for you so much...but all i see now is darkness...there is no future ahead...for me...let it be all gone...goodbye.

Its already a lost shadow there is no way to recover the impact that have happen...in time it will realize itself.
Is okay to hate me just be safe. I wont be a burden for much longer bear with it time is coming to a close
Shadow of the past haunts the present...would the end of this tunnel shows the future light?

Guilt

July 4 July 5 July 6 and July 7...so much have happen that even my mind have a hard time accepting it...good times bad times shock times depressed times disappointment times and guilt times....all these mixes emotion...the more you know the more u lost...On this day..i have lost faith in humanity...in my selves...The one thing I am most clear is now...The guilt i feel...as I know something was wrong...and dare not take action....this guilt...why dint was i so shaken up...is it because i want to save my own skin or my friends or the person at danger...maybe none or all?...I dunno...but this guilt...I do not know how to put it into words now...i'll try to continue tmr...o haha i mean today...

and this quote comes to my mind..." You either die a hero , or live long enough to see yourself become the villain."

Goals

Because someone once told me "it's about doing what we love and when we do so money just comes naturally." somehow this phrase have awaken something i left out very long...haha indeed i have forgotten myself sorry for not noticing it earlier >< now i will make that step out to live my dreams i will chase it the chance and everything have been set up for me all the time its just that I'm too blinded by insignificant stuff that i think it is important while ended up hurting myself. Its good to have a goal i guess? even if i end up some place far as long the heart is true i believe we are still connected. It does not matter u made 100 friends all you need is true friends who acknowledge your bad and your good and accept u regardless light cannot exist without shadow vise versa learning to accept is just how it will make things flow thanks for reawakening me and so onwards chase it down hunt it down and make the powers your remember invest in yourself the skill and knowledge learned once it is done it be your forever and u can reproduce it no matter how many times u lost it self development 1st its not about chasing great things its about becoming someone great yourself that will naturally attract greater things to you instead of chasing it so many successfull people have share their secrets but we as typical human wont believe it because we are afraid to change those who are crazy and out of the box are the one who climb out of the crowd and stands above others in the end because they continue to improve themself. they inspire me many times but i think i finally got the message instead of being inspire and idoling them their true message is stop sitting there and do nothing if you know it already stand up and do it yourself. its about growing thanks for everything everyone continue to improve! :D

Eternal Slumber

The wish...The pain...The truth...If i could only close my eyes and fall into a eternal slumber...Somethings will never be appreciated until they are lost..memories lost...affection to insanity you do not know your own limits or powers till your push to your last leg...There are too much stress lately that have been building up inside me..but i continue to smile and move on hiding it...but push to my ends...even i will fall easily...Its really too pain to bear everything alone..why...when I need you you were never there...Am I so insignificant too you?
Loneliness darkness all alone I wish for a eternal slumber.