The person you want to be

there is a saying of who you hang out with the most will determine what you will become in the future this is environment affect its a common thing herd instinct if you find there is a gap in your life a hole in your heart then go out and seek the problem and find the way to solve it do not be afraid of making mistakes or failures this will grow us to what we want to be. every obstacles that are there to hinder us bring us 1 step backward but raise our knowledge to move 2 step forward I believe that with true willpower and faith anyone can succeed in their own ways how far depends on how much they limit their mind. You and I are all the same humans we will have times where we will feel down and this are the times we should seek positive energy to boost ourselves from the hole in the heart to prepare to move further. Most importantly no matter how we think and how we are we must always never forget of the people around us who are those who are there for you regardless of good or bad times and those who are not appreciate the simple things in life only then you can move far and stay humble :)

To me

Question that have a uncertain or hidden truth...very well I'll answer for myself then.

You are someone irreplaceable someone who I care deeply that I'll do anything even if it is stupid or at a disadvantage for me...I'll sacrifice for you...someone whom...I fall deeply...like a idiot...

Nothing last forever...if we take everything for granted..we will regret it deeply when its gone...care for everything around us and appreciate them. you never know how important it's worth is until you lose it.

A shattered reality...A lose past...A world I no longer knew.

Inside it is empty...outside a mask of lies...and so I walked away...I cant take it.

So...I made a decision one that will change my world...and embrace the future.

unrequited love.

Character

So this is what it is meant by "Birds of a feather flock together".

When the mindset changes the world changes...

Sacrifice must be made in order for a change

Will i be forgotten? And dissapear in the shadows? Left all alone again...the transition.

Dont leave me too will you?

Character never forget to have that and always have a clear sight of your objectives.

Move forward...on the way new lights and oppotunity shall present itself.

Responsibility to one selves

We must always be responsible for the choices and action we take not anyone else but ourselves. You can make it here You can make it out it is a two way relation simple and easy...ask your conciousness and you will find the answer.
I wont not say is right or wrong...no matter what is your choice I will respect. you have my blessing whichever path you choose. Responsibility and respect to our selves and to others are very important never forget that...as we grow older...this burden will become heavier...all the best....it pains me but this is life....we must accept coming and goings as part of it...nothing last forever...even though is cowardly...I wish...I could run and go into a long slumber...to rest...a lot have happen...I'm really tired now....both mentally and physically...a war awaits me...ahead...let me crumble now...and regain strength before its too late...sorry...but the things I learned this few days...yeah...and have to turn all this into a driving power to move forward...cant look back...need to chase ahead...but I wish....yeah accept the passing when the times has come...do not hold back...accept the truth...and smile...That alone is enough.. :)

Resurrection (Chapter Fear)

Its happening again...How did I keep ending up in a half asleep half awake state recently?....Its that dream again....Maybe its due too being half awake I can remember it clearly....tat feeling...like being watch...being cursed...It all started after that genting crash....I have fear to drive my car alone now.....always checking the horn...and highlight...it seems so real....always end when I manage to break...but...every time it happens I always awoken suddenly with my heart beating extremely fast that is hurts...what is this feeling....I'm...really scare...it feels like it is directly in me...showing me....it does not feel like I'm latched on too...but it feels like being cursed....It hurts....I'm really scare...this is fear...help...Is this a physiological disorder or supernatural at play....I dunno...

Resurrection (Extra chapter moonlight memoria)

The sky tonight is a very clear one as all the stars are abnormally beautiful yet visible. But the one that kept me questioning was the moon...it was abnormally mesmerising yet sinister...what is this feeling in my chest my heart?...i woke up not knowing what i dreamt for the past few days...yet it seem so real...like i was waking from a dreams dream?and yet nothing remains...this feeling...hmm...

I have no idea...but..i am sure of a thing...that is something missing I'm forgetting something very important but what is it?this feeling...as i look up to the distant sky...unable to shake off the heavy feeling...yet i am content...seems like it was right..if we choose to do so and wish to do so...the result will be what we wanted so everything is really in our head...hehe...i hope...i can see clearly...what is it about...i want to now the truth...what is it that i have forgotten...living in the present and moving forward seeing the possibilities and opportunities around...optimistic yet sensitive. Put full trust orelse dun trust at all just like the moon that shines. :)

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Resurrection (Last chapter The lost star and the last star)

Human will always seek perfection to satisfied their desires...By chasing after something which doesn't really exist but refuse to admit it as it will show how foolish the person is...and so this is the lost star...a star that never really existed but people believe in its existence hence the name lost star...
We are often confronted by our emotions to make decisions this emotions will stir up a war within our insides...but when we finally make up our mind can we be sure our sub concious and concious are the same?
What we know our concious is only 5% of ourselves the remaining 95% are our sub concious the part we do not know but is ourselves. Blindly chasing after something that I believe its real...to no ends will this be how my life going to be? chasing after a lost star?
Problems and solutions are all just our imagination. This means everything we see now is what we sub consciously created we wanted it to happen so it happen. As humans we will always face troubles and problems but when we are able to cope with it and clear the trouble we are relieve so I'm saying all these is what we actually created ourselves. I'm grateful and happy for those who cared for me and worried for me during my times of crisis and problems. Everyone have their own mindset their own world their own troubles therefore one cannot be perfect without going through this trials...and so...thanks for supporting me...but the problem are cause by me in the first place so it is going to me to destroy this problem. And the same concept apply to all of us.
Patience is not something you can take for granted it takes time and the right people only then you can wait together with them. People with the same mindset will lump together that be the norm but if you are going to accomplish great legend to success you must be the one to be able to galvanize others and implant your ideas and dreams too others only then it will come true. A dream will never come true if you have no one to support it or build it, but no matter how impossible is the dream is if you are able to implant it and galvanize other too see the same vision as you it will come true for it is all in our mind.
And so the story of the last star tells us that no matter how desperate or defeated we are...if we believe truly and do not give up it is ours to take...the star that does not exist will appear...as the last star. Even if it will be the last..what important is it stays in our heart forever...and that is call "Memory of the Heart".
Even if I will eventually disappear or be lost or forgotten...but the times we go through will always remain i will always be in the "Memory of the Heart" of those who hold me dear and they too will remain in mine.
Go forward and never look back...I will always be in everyone heart when you need me no matter where I am whether i exist or i dont...because i will always exist in the hearts of those who trust me.
This would then resurrect the life that is lose. Thus resurrection.

The End