Saturday, January 29, 2011

Bloody and painfull holiday begin @.@

1st painful is on monday during wuhu~wa today wan us to tahan spilt~still let instructes press~like wanna break leg leT.T...little did I know...at the end I is even more gg~after the class end...i talk wif teacher abt my hunchback problem...then he say he help me straigten it...wa say relax relax relax~once he help me pull the bone...Walau...earlier de pain all gone d~all pain go to my backbone~reali like broken~then after tat the whole day cant even bend properly~when bend pain...to top it off earlier de leg stretching effect come le after my nap reali like orang cacat XD~then at night tuition is my most painful de 3hours cause must bend to do tuition work T.T...the pain lasted for 3days till wed then start hunching a little again...gg loT.T~................2nd pain...a well lesson learn...and a chain kill of 4cem~1st curse...today wednesday during PJK when almost finish the time...jun ming eye kena hit by basketball...then bengkak dao his eye...wow...ouch~then he went home le~2nd curse thursday~our genius mr neo play badminton dao cut dao his leg...then nid wrap~genius!?...then at night...wif yimin chat at fb..."she say wow wed jun ming kena eye,thursday neo kena leg,hmm u think tmr friday we 4cem whose turn kena??XD"...i say you la XD...she say choi u kena 1st la XP....*little did I know she was right T.T*....friday...last day of school for cny holiday XP...and also lastday for raf n hisyam T.T~n I told them"...meetings n partings happen alot in our life :) but even when the people is not here...memories n their heart will always remain ;) ...i wish u a bright future do ur best in ur new school XD and dont forget me ;) extra for hisyam:U still owe me a prank~...now is my turn to prepare my english...hope I can pass the entrance exam n settle wif my parent abt money problem then can transfer to international school le XD...although I will miss everyone~.. 3 30 wait at school for mom to come and fetch me~yea today noone in 4cem injured^^...then while waiting I jump around the bicycle tiang n steel bench >< jump till suddenly...when I was jumping away from the bench...the steel bench fall backward toward the longkang~naturally I also Pokai... maybe cause of jumping force and distance too impact...i fall hard on my left leg...and I use both my hands to reduce impact force~was stun on ground for 3minute leg pain till unmovable~aftertat arm also no strenght to lift the bench bak up...aftertat at home climb stairs also weak...arm use more strenght then pain......conclusion friday I am the wan to kena...sat Morning...crap even more pain liao T.T~just now just go see tita...tat sifu help me pull my bones pain!!...he say left leg ok de just nid to rub..terible blueblack..both arm jiu not so lucky dont know kena till which nerve~nowonder arm so strain and pain T.T...painful start for the holidays.................bloody diaries~finaly my ucleur come le~(every month auto come de)~to top it off during thursday dinner~i accidentaly bite till my ucleur pain dao~drop blood on my rice~wouch tat is a 1st~.........2nd bloody diary also thursday night when I was lying on my bed~i got the urge too expelled my mucos...then it happen....i actually nose bleeding~so when expelled I made a mess on my basin full of blood~toke me 3min to clean the mess T.T just now evening happen again T.T this is my 1st and 2nd
Time happen like this T.T~.........3rd bloody diary...my gum problem getting worse 5 day brush teeth this week also bleed T.T~.....final conclusion this week is 1bloody and painful week~....(yeah I complete this post using my phone 40min at my tang jie house cause party~ P.S sorry if got spelling mistake cause use phone to writeXD)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Code of the life maker~

Wat exactly Is every human role in life??everything exists for a purpose~and the purpose is to serve a balance in life~evil n good...2nature tat will always clash...if there is only 1then balance will be upseted~then the question is...did we choose to be born into this world??the answer is no...then why do we suddenly come into this world??wat are we suppose to do??again is a answer tat cannot be answer...we all dont know why we were born to this world for...wat our life here is for...isit a must in order to balance life?so then when we were all born into this world~we were already given a mission to complete~tat is to seek why we are call upon(born to this world)n our purpose...life is about unanswered question tat fill our head...n a duty to find tat answer...n again...doesnt this only mean life is just an illusion??who knows?? :) if it is then wat is reality??then wat is the meaning of truth??...if we dint choose to be born...who summon us to this world?is there something or someone above us tat do all this??who knows? :) we always heard abt god n so on...but in the end we just heard...just a rumour tat spread n spread until it is recognize as reality tat is exist...but wat proof there is??we dont know...so in the end we must find the answer to our role in life ourself...maybe one day we will actually crack the mysteries behind everything~brk the illusions...n head toward the door of truth tat explain everything...tat is wat I belive in :)...so many question still encircling inside my heads...why this n why tat...i also dont reali know wat im saying now...everything written here is just pure instincts~...(pls dun think im some kind of physco ya :))this ends here for today...n as the title suggest...the something or someone above everything is "THE LIFE MAKER" n all those questions above will be the code of life...the questions tat are in our head(instincts)tat makes us wat we are... Human :)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

10th day~

The 10th day is coming to a end~but the dream never came true~appears the 10 day deals was just an illusion T.T well too bad...if it came true~maybe my life will return bak to perfect n normal XD~but thinking bak...na since when my life is normal xP~well victor keep waiting ba~n move on slowly step by step ;) for now focus on studies 1st so can touch com XD

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

free sky :)

today when at tamak waiting....the sky above us is so beautiful....dont know how to describe....the little bits of sunlight change some cloud to yellow colour....so nice XD....how i wish....i could be as free as the sky :) so brood....so light....so free.....so...beautiful.....hehe..... dont know why....i juz cant hlp myself but become a little weird every single 5th n 12th of a month :P

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

silenced heart...

3rd day of school.....i start worrying for some subjects le....the teacher are really useless for some subject....not to meantion dam boring~....today the 5th of jan......unnoticingly....a month had actually pass so quickly....so much have changed...within a month...my life was so different.....so hard to describe this feeling.....but no matter how things n time move n changes....my heart now still remains the same.........frozen in darkness....trying to find a light way out.......haiz~