a new beginning.... =D

finaly.....1 year have pass.....so quickly....2010 have already come to an end....wif tat many partings n farewell have pass this year....now its time for a new year....2011 its here......i have gain many invaluable things this year :D....n also have lost some invaluable things to me.....somethings can never meant to be forever i guess><......now a new year have arrive providing new challenges on the way.....its time to move on :).....towards a new world XD.......may the darkness tat have completely seal off my heart of 2010 be seal away n the reborn of a new heart for 2011 to begin a new life =D....let the past be a past...perfect the present ur in now...to create a great future;)....may this be a new n good year to everyone!!! HAPPY READY GO!^^HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE^^

HAPPY READY GO!!

If I overtake the shining wind
I'll surely meet you, right?
A new shine, HAPPY READY GO!!

I just woke up, about to split from the throbbing
packed in my breast pocket, I looked up at the sky
playing with my bangs in the mirror
I want to run through with an original smile

A thump a second, these tinted days
will become a map to the future, a fast throbbing

I wonder what will I be waiting for
Even if it's raining I'm fine, It'll become a rainbow
Colorful Happy Material GO!!
I'll surely meet you, right?
let this little courage bloom

If you're careless, you might be late to your dream
Pure and right, But first try it out!
The recipe is good, but spice is essential
Hold your head high and go! Full power!

Girls feelings are totally backwards, bittersweet feelings
Special spirits split open my heart♪

If I jump to my dream
Will I be able to take it?
Before you worry, do the things you can do!
Colorful happy material GO!
Matching shimmers
I want it to reach you HAPPY READY GO!!

If I overtake the shining wind
I wonder what will I be waiting for
Even if it's raining it's still fine, It'll become a rainbow
Colorful Happy Material GO!!
I'll surely meet you, right?
let this little courage blossom
I want it to reach you HAPPY READY GO!!

A heart.....

today....bak to school le....to go get result.....dam tired....ytd around 4 30 like tat almsot to 5 only slept then 7 nid wake up d....so darn tired.....then neo n i go to mamak stall n eat breakfast.....ordered a teh tarik to hopefully keep myself awaks for the next few hours....(dint work out well by 11 ady tired bak><)then walk to school to tell my daughters to inform me when gather at dewan.....then walk to tan hse...to rest....fall a slpzzzz.....around 10 40 get a call then tan mom fetch us too school.....go dewan aspirasi.....wait result...call out all pelajar cermelang><(mostly anggerik nia only 1 cempaka zaim u rock!!><) fell happy for them....at the same time...this emptyness in my heart starting to build up....then see le result....get 4A 3B....wow....a result i never expected i could get....few very satisfied.. :)...suppose to be happy...but cant.....some prb....then see my maths A....well....not bad from D to A haha ok ba >< BM can actually get B shocked nia><
keep in my bag....then saw something....in my bag.....haiz.....nowonder....now i know why d....why i dint reali have any emotions for the results...haiz............after tat...just continue to try to act happy n watch movie wif tan,neo,cs,zhi kit n kar meng.....after watch finish....go home then when to shower~for 20 min nia~my longest record.....haiz....why why.....why cant i....haiz....be4 dinner now better go out to get some air ba....stop here...... :)

conclusion......(satisfy with my result although is a last min effort><....)tat's all......

time passes

2 weeks have pass officialy......all i hope now is tat we could laugh n chat like normal friends....u dont know how important u are to me....friends... :)

Lie...

Haiz...who am I kidding...ever since tat day...i am just living in a self made illusionary world tat keep telling myself everything was ok n perfect :)..when everything for me was not ok...but I still enjoy seeing everyone happy......but all I can do now is keep living in this world always lying to myself~...i reali need you...i miss you...but wat to do??only can just keep lying to myself....

pain~

since this morning wake up.....right eye very pain all red...cant open properly....so just close it almost whole day...n use left eye to see only....so weird==".....not just tat when wake up.....leg cram...n somehow i dont know how la...i scratch dao own face....near my face the chin there all red...n got scratch mark T_T...walau...dont know how i kenna de...dam...last week n this week....body so weak..dont know why...haiz....i hope can get a medicine to cure this....too bad no medicine de.....haiz...~white blood cell gambateh T_T.....haiz...emotions...really a hindrance~ :(

because you'r here...

Although the world in my dreaming eyes seems so beautiful
I recall my doubts, so can a person become a coward?

When we shared a laugh together, we were so alike
Even trivial lies were kindly overlooked

It doesn't matter if we've no place to return to
Because I'll protect that smiling face

There are countless meetings and partings...
I don't want to lose it all
Now it's okay, it seems I don't need a thing
I just want to gaze beside you
Joy and sorrow and everything

Little by little, I've forgotten those times growing up
There's honesty at any time in my heart

I've taken pieces of courage from you
And I give the blooming flower in my heart only to you

My overflowing tears have taught me
I mustn't let everything slip away
That time remains in my heart
Your smiling face, like the sun,
Makes me so much stronger

There are countless meetings and partings...
I don't want to lose it all
Now it's okay, it seems I don't need a thing
I just want to gaze beside you
Joy and sorrow and everything

Let's start from here and now
Let's begin our tomorrow together
Let's keep our feelings as they are
Like flowers shaken by the summer wind,
Let's bring this moment to full bloom now

Memories...

The 3rd day le...i look horrible><....haiz...memories...how I wish I have amesia now...sleeping just became the hardest thing to en...everytime I close my eyes memories start flooding in my mind...then my Shang Fung will come XP...haiz...life is so troublesome~lucky still have friends...:)

tomorow will be better :)

ppl always say n tell me it is imposible...but i never belive it...n chase my seemingly fairy tail dreams.....but now i know wat it all means....how silly of me to be so childish thinking everything will be going as i plan><....haha....ytd is a past...all those sad n happy memories will remain in my memory forever....for u will always be my 1st true love :) ....tomorow will be better forget yesterday....n grow up to face the real world victor ;)

counciouns....

night ady....im trying to hold on to my counciounsness for as long as possible....fainted 2 time today....1st at morning...tat is almost...faint...whew......2nd...afternoon...i endure till my limit...to talk to u....then rush into room...wham...blank le out of counciouns for 1 and the half hour......my head have been hurting the whole day....haiz...should not be so emotional...forget it will trigger it....~now my dam ucleur is hurting like hell...start to cant speak properly le....dint even eat dinner today...no selera for makan...n to Pain!..pain dao.......today...dec 1....time flies so fast....new year in another 30 days...wow......dec 1...2010...a day..tat i will rmb for quite some time.........my heart is hurt badly...still feel sad when i think abt it....i reali hope u can find it bak............for a broken heart is not easy to fix....i dont wan to lose u...plss come bak to me soon.....haiz.. T_T....worse day in my life...

2 tressures...

yesterday was the end of our form 3 lives....so fast...so quick...time flies...it was just like ytd....when we were all form 2 only....year by year passes...in a nick of time...but...no matter how fast time passes and goes....it will never take away 2 great tressures from us....tat...is memories and friendship....watever have pass...the effect will still be in this 2 things...wether is a good memory or a bad memory....and the bonding of friendship between ppl....i wan to thanked all my friends this year...for the good times we spent together...and now its the time...to enjoy the holidays...happy holidays too all ya =)...enjoy all u can this year...i can tell u our form 4 lives are not gonna be so relaxing O..>< so goodluck n enjoy the best be 4 this year ends..only 51 more days u know to the year 2011 haha =P

yesterday night was the most...funny thing i heard.....tat is...i am talking on the phone wif someone sleeping ady LOL >< haha.....when i call ur name u can"en".....but..or the other things i talk to u n asked u....u bo answer....fall asleep le >< haha...well well....at least everything was settle ytd...so now i can relax to go enjoy my trip le =D....thankyou for beeing truthu to me...hehe....reali so gua de...i not so easy angry n think senget de la u wakakak XP....

ok im done..soon i am going to KLIA le....well...i will miss everyone de =D ...i try by souvenir ba haha...bb all ^^

we are volunteer..

today after arive at school...put down bag le...then go counseling to hlp out teacher sort out the shirt...(haiz...another PRS JOB=="...not to mention i just got news....tat enrolment for new form 1 students begin today...meaning i hope the next 2 days...i wont be called to hlp out...cause..basicly is anothe PRS job T_T)....after give shirt,twiggies and water...we start to board the bas...basicly nid hlp the counseling teacher....so...by the time we went out the gate...(me n chun wai)this is no bas for us to choose...so puan chew just force us go up the 1st bas...me n chun wai...sit the 2nd last rooli sit 1 space hit sit 1 space...1 ppl sit 2 chairs=="...(bus trip boring~)

arive at the zoo...then spilt into groups...no chance wif u le lo no nid see....then my group got chun wai,hisyam,zaim,amir and me><....we were assinged to the reptile section...hmm reptile...ok la i kinda like reptiles...as long not insects can d=="

1st thing we go thr...tat guy told us too put our bag in his office 1st...then at thr...i saw...he got a aquariam...n a small cage putting somekind of frog named bull something frog...darn fat=="not ur average frog tat is for sure><...then go look for mun yee n u all....end up walking around the zoo looking for tigers n lion LOL??>< 10 30+ times up go bak to reptile section..

great we were not late...the supervisor haven come...so look around at those snake...i told chun wai"aww man hope we get too feed them later><"....he say i siao==".....after forawhile...the supervisor came...along wif a truck following too...he say hlp too cary the boxes out of the truck...chun wai 1st to go thr n take...after he go thr...haven take the box yet....he turn bak n run to hide behind the staff gate...he told me rats!!...alot of them...aww great he was afraid of rats...then me hisyam amir n zaim carry the boxes to the so called "rat house"...wow..then i only notice...thr is so many mice and rats inside some boxes....got 1 box all white de,1 box all black de,1 more mix white n black...damn many..the white wan was cute><....after sweep finish..nice lo...the superviser let us feed the 100 years old tortoise><)

12 we ownself walk le...(skip the process walk the whole zoo d)then..came to lunch time...eat food...zzzz...fried rice??=="i ate hlaf give the rest too zen hao...veggie left bak for him><....then ...waited for bas lo....bas 1 was here on time...bas 2....haiz,..late 1 a entire 1 hour...so pityful T_T.....too bad ur down thr also...haiz...more worse :(....on the bas...only hear music waiting to go home only=="...and then...i notice le...my uclear come le...dang...start annoying me again...everytime be4 go trip to somewhr sure will got uclear wan deng=="...

then arrive at school...wait for sj...he fetch me home^^...tqtq so much><....cause mom go le melaka><....(again==")....i manage to sit this one out..no nid to follow 1st time^^then shower...then on9 le...basicly all the way until now at night lol><

haiz....now house only got me sleeping alone in my room,dad opposite room alone,maid downstairs alone also....everytime like tat...i also must on alarm...n the phenomena...is always...preety chilling..n scary....==".....haiz...tomorow nov 10 le...so fast...almost a year is gonna pass le...never notice tat :P...2 more days for me to go HK le...then...this thursday is my last day of school...last day see u le..:(...then almost 2 weeks cant chat or communicate wif u jor T_T....time so fast...soon it be a new year....1 whole year is abt too come to and end.....my form 1 & form 2 days...seems like a flash...just a distance memory...everything passes so fast T.T...

aww...man...

after send my sis home from pushing her uphill all the way bak home=="...then i walked alone....cause dont feel like going home yet...still got something missing....sms u le around 20-30 min ago no answer so i guess u still at yoga class lo...but this time when walking through tat time saw u le.....wanted to walk wif u...but u say ur dad on top very easy see de....so i guess still better not ba...too risky...later ur dad scold u again :( ..... seeing her...but not able to walk wif her....is just like....a mountain of gold in front of me but cannot take it.... :( ...so i contineu walking alone on the road.....staring at the sky.....end up 1 round saw u pass by again...then i walk home le.....on the way home saw u n ur sis cycling up thr....maybe u going for a whole round again gua haha^^

Time...

Sorrow...despair....something new tat came in........... Finaly....i think I know le....palpitation and Heart disseas ...maybe...tat is the problem causing my heart suffering...

much on my mind....

haiz...now 1 30 am le...almost too 2 am le....still cant slp....this time i checked dint drink coffe d la...still cant slp....brain just dont wanna shut down...surely got things running in my brain...keep me thinking....cant slp....haiz...~...well.....i hope u are sleeping soundly n havin a sweet dream ba XP .....

One Day...

Every time I look at the sky after the rain.....I think of the crybaby I used to be....I was blindly chasing after someone's back.........Saying "I want to be stronger".......Now faded into the wind that is "thank you"......Am I getting stronger?

Since I haven't got an answer to that.......I'll keep walking forward................So let's go......We will never stop,We Won't lose against the flow of time...........I'll keep getting back up........Because I don't want to lose anything precious to me.....

The voice flowing inside of me.......Always supporting me.......Teasing rain will get in my way.........Because I won't run away..........Just Like a bird flying in the sky..........I'm searching for a tomorrow I can't even see.........If I'm scared while stumbling...........My eyes will never drop at my feet

So let's go.......We will never stop,We Won't lose against the flow of time....Because I'll keep getting back up.........Because I don't want to lose someone precious to me......I will always believe in that future.....

Belive

People tell me my head's in the clouds

I don't care what they say

because I'm dreamin' of you

You are the treasure I've found

So bright, so bold, yet so elusive

It's hard to look away, even though it's blinding me

There are no words to describe how I feel inside

I'm really really stuck on you whoa, whoa!

I have to follow my dreams however crazy they seem

And I won't stop 'til I get there, you will see

You're all I need to have the strength to believe

Believe in The Future!

I'm gonna' follow my dreams, however crazy they seem

I'm gonna' share them with you, a love so true

You're all I want, together we can move on

Live how we want to!

There is no limit to us, we have the power of love

And we don't wanna' live ordinary lives

We have the chance to live in paradise

Believe in The Present!

onwards....

almost 2weeks of very memorable events have pass....why am i still so weak??.....everything by looks.....externally im alright.....but i know....my internal is a total wreck and mess up.....how long will it take for me to recover??....the recent....sudden stabs of heart pain....just doesnt stop......why??....it hurts....for tat few momment and then bak to normal.....why why??......haiz.....how long more do i have to suffer this pain...my uclear isnt getting any better.....my mouth is still as horrible as it is......how long do i have to rest....or is this the sign??.....is it almost time??.......unanswer question...all still stuck in my head....life....time....world......wat is the meaning of life??.....why is time moving faster n faster each day.......why is the world....facing more n more problems??....is this the revenge of the mother nature for wat man kind have done??......i feel more dissaters...will soon come.....this is definately very bad.......worse of all....i fear...our ekonomi...will fall even worse...sooner or later........i hope my dad....will be alright.....

Its finaly have ended XD

Today...officially ended le PMR for all form 3 our hardwork for 3years have all been throw to this 2weeks of exam n now its over^^time to get our time off n kickbak at the couch n cheelax lol XD(although I yesterday ady finish le la mwahahaha)ok now well...everyone time to relax n happy ba!!!...n friday go up genting le O.o so fast XP....well appears today finish le u very happy which is a good thing >< see u so happy then I also relive le ;) ....but dam funny u...1st thing finish exam wan de thing is food say very hungry haha lol XD....well for now let us all form 3 student play n relax till DEC 24 ba XD

a stupid dissagrement.....

today....when going out for lunch tat time.......only got me n my dad together eat lunch.....i dont know wat is wrong wif my dad....dont know wat he angry abt...then he bla bla bla bla...~~
then talk until ah...i am his investment ah...next time old is me take care of him de ah.....i answer bak "yala i know...but u ownself dont have cash flow meh?build from now la...not too late also...then he angryly answer bak...."i ownself know how to work no nid u teach me~~....then he say...u know ah....son....eduction is a lifetime invesetment...u must study n study more ah......not after exam then can relax......i answer in a very disagreeing way......kwonledge is only a lifetime investment...n..financial eduction is only solid!!...in our hectic world n generation now..no money no life!!....the old saying n way wont work de!!..keep tat thinking of "study hard,get good grade,get a good secure job"wont work!!u end up in the rat race in financial secruity ah!!.....my dad scolded bak:i know wat is best for u de...so u must listen to me.....n then go on blabering...abt studies..,universities..n balblabla...cause his studies last time very good de...haiz...~~he wont understand de la....then food come le...good lord.....i was preety mad at the moment...then accidentaly bit my lip..very pain...darn it...bleeding....then...ouch...drip into the soup....then...a crazy idea went into my brain...XP so I just stir the soup the blood mix wif the curry mee...then I eat lo....wow...today the curry mee extra tasty wif a little twist,which is my blood haha^^maybe I should try to do tat again next time hehe XP....then I forget abt the argument le...so i avoided from continue fighting wif dad le....wat a stupid fight....later when I think bak....n a new recipe haha

PMR....almost wan finish le...haiz...

today...all exams..finish dao 7788 le.....only left..monday...whr all pll quite relax d except me....maths n KH...tuesday is for got take chinese de pll....

1st day BM:....BM 1...reali feel..horible..then at night check answer d only correct 18....i feel damn terrible....n BM 2.....i hope the marker...can see through my artistic wrtting i ady put my best le...for tat....haiz~~

2nd day wednesday:today take geo n BI.......BI 1...ok ba..if the answers given no prb..i wrong 1 only....police taken my 1 mark lol~~....paper 2...same ba artistic writtin.....but story...i guess i write a little too much le...just like for novel...too much le....~geo....for me...not easy not hard.......but got answer wrong 18...~~haiz....will i get B or A like tat.....dam...dissapointing....

3rd day today:SC n SEJ.....haiz...SC 1 check le...wrong 9....watthe....~~haiz....SC 2....not very confident...but hope still can get A ba.....haiz.......then sej....not very hard or easy...check le....wrong 16!!!...feel even worse.....stuck in even more middle...damn damn disapointed......

now present:....using noob desktop to on9...n try to relax my mind...n brain....cause mom n sis go bangkok le....so can on..the desktop......so....now have 3 days..to rush my maths...i reali hope can push it up to at least B....n KH if can correct 35 then ok le ba...~~....somehow feel this few days....inside the heart n mind...feel so confused n stressout...but my physical appearance just doesnt show it out at all...when in school....in fact the complete opposite from the inside....i reali dont know how...is my mind even working properly....haiz....well...i hope..u will get well very soon....n u can do it de...straight As ah><....hehe.......well well........just very miss u n envy u now.......i hope my brain n heart..will function properly...soon again...haiz...goodluck too all candidates....only 1 more day or 2 more days for some.......goodluck....

"Open Your Heart"

"Open Your Heart"

I didn't mean to let you down
You have to believe it
I don't know what went through my mind
But now I can see

That I waited too long
To tell you how much it matters
Just to be right here with you
But I couldn't think of anything better
I should have told you so

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And i'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again

I'll try to make it up to you
I want you to know
Baby I swear that I'll be true
And never let go
If I waited too long
To tell you how much it matters
Just to be right here with you
But I couldn't think of anything better
I should have told you so

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And i'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again

We could relive this pain and sorrow
But we better do it in time
Start over here and save tomorrow
I wanna make you mine

Open your heart with a chance
And I'll be here forever
Open your heart and I'll care
And I will make you understand
Oh baby,
If you open your heart
To love me once again

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And I'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again

1week><...

Hmm...1more week to PMR:)...so I guess everyone also prepare till okok le hor?.....pegetua today see le us...not bad wat quite funny^^...well well very soon ba I hope everyone can do it wif no problem^^...hmm...haha somehow this 2days is very memorable day n happy haha^^

Return

Somehow today the goodweather make me very good mood><....another 8more days to PMR I wish everyone goodluck n be ready

Rain...

Almost this whole week...everyday also will have rain...the weather dam cooling n relaxing....but the sky have just cry too much recently....rainy weathers often make me think n wonder alot...is my existence needed in this world? Wat is my role in this world?if my one miserable life is gone...will it be for the better or for the worse?.....dont know why...but somehow this entire week feel so lonely n lost....haiz...am I reali mad d?...~....but as long u are happy then its alright...

Thunders n lightnings....

Yesterday around 10 so many lightnings very nice....leaving the sky in a series of bright flash n some thunder cloud charges each other...but till midnight only rain...ytd dint heard much thunder though...just now afternoon...wow many scary n loud de thunder so terror~...then start rain le...since I finish all my homework le so wif the cooling weather I toke a nap until u finish all ur homework><..................haiz recently quite stress out...dont know why~....dont know how much longer can I stay myself n not go crazy soon~....haiz... T.T

PPS

P.P.S also stands for(Pre PMR syndrom or Pre Peperiksaan sickness)><

Yesterday tution very little ppl came as usual=="but some malays have came bak la though><......then ytd during science class tat time....teacher ask us all how is our Preparations for PMR going?we all answer ok or not bad....except hisyam....he answer teacher cheh PMR finish ady lo laughing n said i got 500 As PMR too east le:P
then teacher sigh n say....haiz...looks like some of our students have experiance a heavy n serious case of the PPS lol >< then we all laugh cause the PPs have cause hisyam to be very nervous resulting his crazyness lol>< haha

I wonder how many others of my friend facing this syndrome XP hope everyone ok ba;)n goodluck n study smart examination comin in 2weeks n ur birthday^^

Nice weather day...

Today the weather is so cooling n lazy making me feel more sleepy XD...but somehow...i feel weak n at last fall sick le today T.T...today time passes very slow unlike the last few days haiz~feeling bored...n lacking of something my heart is missing something somehow...haiz...head feeling heavy now...when can I find medicine to eat~...T.T

goodbye....

today...so many things pop out alll of a sudden..dont even have the power or time....to face it......hopefully i can think straight bak soon.....mom get well soon....ur sickness...have cause us many suffering..ur mood swings..will kill me be 4 it kill u....pls...let it all end...anyway..i think this is goodbye then....hope my hp wont be keep to ba....bb.....

life so far~

today woke up...aiya lost to her le she won she wake up 1st dam>hmm....it appears my curse shall end today midnight...tomorow is august for chinese calander le ending of ghost month yea^^........
yesterday PPS jamuan darn it...eat till so full so late only slp 12 10 T_T.........n mostly thr just eat n see them take pic n laugh lol~~........
haiz...another 29 days then is ur birthday le...n PMR...haiz...nid to work n prepare more harder le...just hope i can attained my goal ba....5A's n 2B's is eough for me.....well must gambateh n work harder le goodluck to everyone.....n enjoy ur holidays^^and to my malays friends...."Selamat Hari Raya"^^

time goes on..on july....

today maths exam...darn....~feel very hard......why my maths so weak de....and dontknow why today maths exam like so many ppl like to talk abt it the more they talk the more i feel i suck~~haiz....damn it...maths...nid to work even harder....hope wont fail can le la~~
at night tuition dont know why....i just listen to teacher explain sej so fast past....but...reali weird dont know why whenever i quiet dont talk for a day or a class..sure got ppl ask wat happen?why so quiet?==wat the i silent abit cannot meh?got wat so special?.......then BM like tat until 7 30 habis...wow so fast..time goes...then i walk down wif shane they all....(tan ponteng lagi==)on the way down the ladder we know BM teacher folowing us...suddenly teacher tap me on the back(like a way to say bb)...i ignore it then almost half way down...shane suddenly turn round n ask me heh victor whr is teacher isnt he following u?i look bak shane was right teacher was at my back just awhile ago...now gone!!wat the we dint heard him went bak up==...weird...reali strange then adi came speeding down we asked him heh teacher went bak up?adi replied ya he go take some stuff.....weird~~then ken go blaber stupid stuff again heh did u guys know today is the hell gate oppening><
we all call him to shut up~.....after the makan shane belanja us except for ken lol><
then shane n juin hao go bak up(shane dint belanja ken cause he went home early:P)then i all alone watiting for my mom downstairs..around 8 10 i saw mom car coming.......all of a sudden i heard something like a gunshot sound.......then 1stly few shopd away de shop alarm rang i was shocked!..then the alarm rank in union all over the whole block here...i was wondering wat happen?saw my mom car came i ran in the car i never say a word....my mom ask wat did i did?i just say...a bank sound n then all the alram when on...i dont know wat happen after tat so i maybe will ask shane wat happen on wed ba haiz~~wat is going on lately?am i tat unlucky?haiz.....

bored~

haiz...this weekend is so dam bored...i cant play maple,cabal and dota....none!!only fb==......so i just look for songs n load anime too se i ady see around 15 anime ytd n gonna burst my phone soon 454 de song le ^^ nid delete some soon :P
haiz tomorow maths exam scary loo~~...well goodluck everyone><

goodluck ^^

yeeps^^goodluck to everyone who is gonna take trial exams or just exam><....do ur best i wish everyone luck n me too of course :P ok then gamabteh everyone

P.S. oh yea n too all my form 3 friends daughter n whoever else form 3 goodluck for ur trials n me too><....although tomorow is chinese exam hmm wat can i do tomorow le?....maybe only can stop n stare lol :P

days after days

the 13th of friday of the chinse ghost month:........
i woke up on 6 as usual since its schooling days :P ....today i woke up 1st my sis still sleeping like pig==".....so i go wif the usual too let unstiff my bone from sleep beside my bed got the cupboard is mirror just tat moment i felt a sudden cheel of my usual bad vibes when i feel something bad or something bad abt too hapen is nearby(some supernatural stuff i guess><)......then i look into the mirror seems like thr is a shadow just past by me....wowzer.....but as soon the bad vibes gone i know its gone my usual feeling la.....after tat i go into bathroom to brushteeth lo...when i brushing half way i felt the bad vibes again(i tough not again twice for a morning le==)....i wash my mouth n bend down to throw the water out then go bak up to watch the mirror to wash my face....tat is when i wash my face my image in the mirror dint not move as i did....oh no...dont tell me my ghost story on mirror are true ah...i blink my eyes for a few time then the bad vibes are gone....then everything back to normal.....haiz wat is it wif today...T_T......after breakfast i wait for my car to come...then i begin thinking why will so black wan today....hmm i know its the ghost month how can so black le today i wonder?.....then my car came i climb up the car n heard the radio...."they play a spooky song n say today is the 13th of friday beware mwahahaha><"now i know why...hmm maybe tat is why so badluck la today T_T.....then the whole day went on like tat....i have several time of the bad vibes wat a bad sign sigh.....worse is when after bak from tuition....i sat on top using my noob destop...sis tuition grandma downthr watching show...dad n mom still not bak yet....after awhile i went to toilet in my room i on the light n do my buisness as usual the light not on yet i will in toilet d...then the bad vibes came...my light went on then went bak off immediatly!!wat the..i ignore it then go wash my hand....the light keep on blinking....then in the mirror i saw it...tat pale figure behind me it was laughing at me like some kind of maniac...she have blood red eyes i stop thr n stare thr in horror.....i dont know wat to do i dont wanna run so i ask her wat do u wan(i am talking to a mirror am i mad!!?....)she stop laughing n smile the bad vibes gone the light stop blinking n on bak as usual....whew wat the....bad timing to scare the hell out of me man T_T......so until today only dare write abt it...thinking of it scare the hell out of me......luckily until today nothin bad like this happen le whewh.....today15 august....the coffee day yea!!^^.......morning i woke up at 8 30 on fb do some of the games then off eat breakfast then do revision till 1 then go out for lunch,drink a cup of white cofee><.....aftertat mom force me to follow dad to go check how my dad mercedes tire spoil==boring~~so dad talk to tat guy thr abt the possibilities why will spoil for almost 2hour boring sia....i wanted to fall a slp le but thr got free serve coffee for customers ma so i go drink a cup of mocha.....,after finish i go drink another cup of cappucino.....after finish i go drink another cup of latte....after finish i wan drink another cup of esspresso my dad say wan go le cant....haiz too bad...then tat guy laugh at me he told my dad...wow ur son reali know how to drink alot of coffe eh :P .....i just laugh lo ><.....well now feeling a little hyper active too waken not sleepy at all drink too much jor if my mom know she sure will kill me de haha ><.....well hope the comin days wont happen anything bad le la :P.....hmm....exam comin soon maybe to9 i will revision again....><

far away...

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there?s just one left
?Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you?ll be with me
and you?ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don?t see you anymore

One my knees, I?ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
?Cause with you, I?d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I?d give it all
I?d give for us
Give anything but I won?t give up
?Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you?ll be with me
and you?ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don?t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
?Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
?Cause I?m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go

diary of sickness...

today i never went to school cause morning wakeup damn dissy n fevering...so dint go school...but around 12 i woke up feel much better le lol the medicine worked lol...although is reali hard for me to drink the medicine...so pahit man!!!....haha afternoon i went to ur hse take homework...n we sat thr talking...the time flies so fast....forawhile i nid go le aww.....:( ....u told me alot of ppl ask u why i dint come to school today?...wow got anot wo?i tough nobody will care hahah><....then i went home dont know when i can come over again...i will try to come if got chance the next time..n u can get wat u wan la><...still have a goodside so cheer up victor goh!!hehe

weathers....

yesterday de weather in school was very nice...after me n my friend play...i dont know how i like push chun wai hardly knock till zhi kit><....then somehow zhi kit lost control n wack my back...darn pain man....aftertat i when out n have a look at the sky...amazingly is so windy...tat i could see the cloud moving....so nice...then zhi kit ask me...u siao le ah let me hit till?.....cause they cant see....hmm..this kind of stuff nid to focus only can see de la.....again at waktu balik after u went home......i saw it again this time kellie n mun yee also saw it....mun yee say like cotton candy wan to eat=="....kellie say nice==" lol just clouds....but very windy la.....then during tuition tat time....the sun go down ammazingly slow today.......but after it goes down around 8 only completely dark....i stare up at the sky again...it was a full moon....nowonder i feel so anxious...every time during a full moon i will have a weird feeling de....dont know why~.....but the sky was so clear....can see so many stars...n of course...the star tat i been tracking for few weeks le..it seems burning even brightly than the last few days le....i comfirm tat far away star is in the process of supernova....to bright le...pity the lifeforms tat assits thr.....thr is so much more thing to discover in this world...amazingly we only know this little....more to come in the future><

haiz...

haiz...recently many of my friends mood change so fast n frequently...even i dont know wat to do to cope wif some of them....1 case settle another 1 got prb must go settle......do i hold responsible for so many of them meh?...haiz....recently also damn bored nothin to do accept revision...=="....lucky still got u pei me^^orelse i bored to hell le.....when can i rest i wonder?....not much rest recently....hope...everything will be bak to normal soon ba....

misunderstandings.......n the edge of darkness....

haiz...misunderstandings between humans...are reali 1 hack of a drag n troubles.....not much ppl can solve it...instead angry over it or sad....tat anger or sadness will block their heart from finding the answers....hopefully.....any troubles or understandings between my friend can be solve...n everyone can be happy ba.. :)
today around 6 reach home...after whole day not home :P.....came home rest awhile then when i want to shower...thr was a sudden defeaning tunder blow....then next thing i know..my hse blackout le...lucky haven in showers..since i use heater de...oresle tio shocked jor T-T....well after my dinner i walk to tuition le....wow...the lightning n tunder above have disappear...the weather was so nice :P....but when i walking through the park to tuition tat time...it suddenly started raining :( so i nid to run.... sun rain haiz.....well at least i get to see a rainbow haha><....quite wet when i reach tuition though haha....><......aftertat at 9 finish tuition i walk home as usual....slowly n enjoyin the night wind><...but when i enter the park...i got a bad feeling...(cause i always take the park road as a shortcut home..although at night pretty silent..n sometimes scary.....)so on the way out to the main road...i saw a car park thr...weird normally still have 5 or more de wo..today 1 je who cares..sure no ppl de...:P.....then as i passing the car....it appears like someone in the car....but i was not sure..so i look at it a while...all of a sudden a chilling wind pass me n the park lights blink for around 5 sec...tat is when i saw it n ran out straight out of the park to the main road whr thr is car.....tat few sec...in the car...the ppl tat i say..(cause not sure got ppl anot)....a bloody red eye just stare out at me all of a sudden when the wind came....(i dont know is my imagination playing me or wat...but i definately heard wat it say....."becarefull...the dark side is watching ur every moves..."....aftertat i ran all the way home.when i enter my housing area...almost reach home tat time....tat sinister wind came again..the streetlight blinking for a while...again...this is when i saw it...something like a black shadow behind my shadow tat i could see flew pass me...(like a giant bat or watever it is)...when i look up i see nothin.....at last i reach home le....wat the heck is this....i hope my immagination is not playing me......u so gotta be kidding man.....anyway as i reach home i pray a while be 4 use my hopelessly lag destop to on9=="....haiz...

the last time...

T-T.....so fast half the july is going to gone....today will be the last day i come ur hse....till after PMR...or have another chance like this...although the time is short...but it was precious to me every minute n every second ;) .....hehe....until then...wish all my friends are getting rdy...go ace the coming exams ba haha><....anyway today ceramah boring nia...but ok la...not to bad...some ceramah even worse....most funny is when wan leave the hall tat time...i talking to tan....tan say thurday got ceramah again haha our legs are gonna hurt again ><.......so i said oh shit...our legs will have to suffer again...then suddenly puan koay heard me n say"wat!!?u say this ceramah shit ah?"...i say "nonono is my leg pain not this ceramah bad...its quite good la".....she stared like beh song "then say hmph....thursay u dont come in la"....haiz tat puan koay ah....isshh wat a drag...very funny de she sometime good sometimes bad=="siao siao d......

moving on...

wow...so fast 2 months have pass....but..haiyo..my daughters they all=="..so geng....i haven wan say they say le...the 12 of every month..walau even faster than me T-T....sorry ah lost to them......hmm...today another day of monday...dint even study at all beside geo...but basicly not listening :P.....then during sc...me,yuan kian n eng yau when to look for puan ong...tough rosila wont in class.....but she did came in class we came up only know=="lucky puan ong help us sia >< say we help her do thing only teacher cancel we ponteng class haha :P ....haiz time...when can we win over time...it feels like everyday time just go faster n faster....i heard some rumors though....abt worms hole appearing throughout the world...(a worm hole is a mysterious hole tat cuts through time n space...for example u might be at home then u see a worm hole on ur wall...if u look inside the wall it will be a far away place for example paris or some random place around earth :P)....tat make me wonder even more.....n wan it even more....if thr is something like a lightspeed jumper to jump over stars in lightspeed...i will definately go explore space n its mysteries starting with the damn blackhole...i gurantee...it warps u somewhere around the universe...since it will surely come out somewhere XD....look out time n space...i will conquer u 1 day...if is posible la ;)........oh n dont worry i am not mad=="just imaginative haha XD

the beginning of despair...

haiz...july have came so fast..just in a flash...which means we olny have abt 80 over days b4 PMR...but since we enter july..i been feeling a sudden change in alot of things......even my friends...some of them cannot handle the pressure n trying to make a timetable to make sure they ace their PMR..but ended up suffocating themself....n somehow time itself just qucikend everyday....i see alot off ppl pulling a smile on their face...but the truth is...they are suffering on the inside...n dont know how to solve it..some i could help to solve it..but some is just too stuborn to help=="........hmm...nowadays the weather n our world is so unstabble..just ytd..i 1st time see such a huge wind in KL..wat the....hope the world be bak to stable..or we wont last long..our earth not us.....haiz...speaking of time..me n kok hou case is the longest case disiplin ever in our school history..1 month plus n still haven settle..wat is with the pegetua....all settle le left us...tat day almost see us then she ran out for meeting...wat the..how long more must we wait...haiz...

happy holidays

happy holidays to all my friend!!!!enjoy ur holiday.....i wont be home till next wednesday so see ya and enjoy...wow such a busy holiday :P

a practiacal joke gone bad...

haiz who know P.A.R can cause so many problem....but i realy dont understand why azziz wan make things so big thr is so many this kind of group why me?....if i found out who is the wan tat sms azziz to check our group and if tat people is student ah...then he/she...in big trouble...like tat also wanna cause problem....haiz....sorry ah puan rozila...but u just teach too boring.....and "kek sui"......but i belive u wont wan make the problem so big de so plsss........hmm most geng de...i realy dint know got so many people care about me de.....thankyou to all my friend..i will be alright de......but most geng of all is the kaunselor teachers.....cikgu radzaki and puan foo.....went radzaki tell me wat is gonna happen puan foo just listen.....i know how serious the problem will be if rosila wan make big.....and have cause some emotional impact...make me cry a little....and most geng is when radzaki tell the time he also shread a little tear same wif puan foo...wow..........

after back home i found out tat...tomorow mom got PIBG meeting tomorow...so i no choice...might as well tell her wat happen....jsut encase tomorow happen stuff.....so kenna lecturred and scold badly....haiz

....how is this holiday gonna be i reali dont know...but i hope eveyrthing will be alright...

...hehe different lives..diffrent thinkings...

....yesterday my primary best friend call me up to ask..how is my exam i just say ok lo.....then he ask abt my birthday wan how celeberate?i just told him u as usual special case u know our family de and surely u give gundam again lo.....suddenly he say wa look like ur school very fun ah....by seeing some of fb pic and video posted by my friends><....he say he wished he could study our school..he say his school very boring cause all students act cool kelian...(but he is the same..a show off too...well well but use to his atitude le though)...then he say haiz so boring time too much nothin to do...weird but for me i few like time not eough man...then i told he next time we catch up i nid sleep tomorow wesak....

today woke up 5 30am..haiz sleepy but thinking back wowzer...last year wesak seem like just a blink of an eye...so fast...6 30 go,7 we reach...then i ask why this year nid so early le?(cause usual every year i noon only go)mom say this year 9am perdana menteri come so too many ppl dont wan jam so early lo...hehe by 8 30 all done the usual praying and blessing and other stuff so can go home le yea!!!!i go outside le only notice handphone got sms,kellie sms me say she saw me...lucky i dint notice so cabut le orelse she sure drag me go help buy shirt(she is one of the darmah students thr)whew save!!!

after reach home....fb time XD
...then at 11 go eat lunch after tat noon i go jusco...saw kar weng....(then blablablablabla secret..XD)back home 5 30 go tuition lagi...8 only come back.....watch movie until 9...then cont fb...and now gao tim mom scolding to off lagi..haiz...well well time fly so fast eh.....if only i could manipulate time....

so quickly...

wa so fast is gonna be another week le...tomorwo friday and the least worry exam well well....haha who knows a week just pass so fast time reali flies...and according to scientist we now 1 day have 23hours and 55minute haiz all the natural disaster has upset the balance of time our earth is at a critical danger lv if we still dont protect it...now all we can do is to enjoy our life i dont know if we will live till our next generation....life wat a funny thing...

good luck!!! :D

tomorow exam's will start swamping in good luck to all my friends do ur best after this is our mid term holiday le gogogo all gambateh XD

late final day of war and cergas ceriathon

on thrusday war my last day well it finish but i end wif a score of 3 marks making me rank 32 over 59 ppl haiz seriously not easy at the end result i only found out all my prvious challenge were terorr players my 1st round was against a senior who ended up ranking 3rd walau....mine 3rd opponent ended in rank 13,4th opponent rank at 14....all so terro in this competition i gain alot of valueble experiance and friend not bad XD....

today was cergas ceriathon my gang arrive at 7am and went to kanan curry house for breakfast....
then on 8 30 we officially enter the school because all the blablablablabla and alot mroe blablablablabla finish only we enter the school the best thing was our water war my gang vs auntie but ah at 1st all of us aim neo...most funny is neo throw a ballon to me i just deflect it and it bounce to the floor and i step in straight to prvent him atk me....so i just went on dodging every single strike and not getting wet at all wenever someone comes at me i just shoot their head basicly it hit their eyes and still miss me only at the end evryone notice i not wet they take the whole bucket to chase me so bassicly i got gangbang as usual i dodge quite many until my good friend MR ZHI KIT STOLE MY WATER GUN KNOCKING MY MOUTH it bleeded so i was hurting cannot react kenna all and ended up the most wet T-T.....well a fun day afterall XD

3rd day of war.....the return of a failure....and traggic in school

....well welll today 2 rounds also win>< hehe not bad la but as i say still is no hope cause lost 3 rounds well......but worse part is when i back to school stupid celaka seniors...reali feel like slapping theirs face le...deng la ganti ganti ganti...deng ya la i know la no nid repeat so many times still say if dint ganti straight fired....==deng u so smart ownself go competion la baga....this is not for school is for zon la baga.....deng make pll beh song dao...i think i got 50% is gonna be fired le gurantee le....

2nd day of war.....failure....haiz

haiz.....today is 2nd day of competion and so far i play le never been pair to challenge juniors like me all also come zon competion many years le all senior haiz so geng so.......i have lost 3 round now thr i no chance to get top 6 and join state team man.....i am a failure...worse is.....b4 going home me and fathi walk the back road to hall tat time the drain slippery and small space we walk together.....then i accidently slip and poka!!.....now got 1 leg is bengkak and another wan got cut...haiz so losusy la i

1st day of wat.....WAT THE U SO GOTTA BE KIDDING

hmm....my 1st day of competition as expected it was not easy much harder than the wan we have in school but pll thr say if u manage to get qualify in zon sentul means not bad le cause zon sentul is the hardest cause mostly is dominate by methodist and kepong....so me and fathi is quite lucky afterall but both of us 1st round also kalah....T-T...
but my 2nd round was u gotta be kidding when the result were out i see until my name thr right victor goh vs....bye==wat the!!!!!I got kik out ke?then i ask the arbitter.....arbitter say u can go home le cause....ur opponent never come so no need play u get a free mark....lolx means i get 1 free mark good news is fathi 2nd round win too XD so good work for today....but our chances are more slimmer now for winning cause i calculated if wan have a chance to move on to state competion maximum only can lose 2 round and tat is ady hard well well wish us luck.....

tomorow....The war begins...

haiz...so fast tomorow is the day le mine 1st day of war....hopefully can be in top 6 cause only top 6 will move on to the next lv competion and the prize who know it will be tat hard.....either way i will try my best though^^

....move on....

(haiz) 3 days have pass since that unpleasent day.....the only thing i can do now is....just forget about the past and just move on.......
soon it's gonna be friday which means 3 more days to competion.....time jsut flies so fast....without us noticing.....well i gotta do my best and give it my all.....wish me luck everyone...haha
but before that i must get well 1st my aosel is getting worse and 1st time to my suprise will bleed wan causing each time i sleep instead of drool i found my bed with blood....haiz.....i am guessing over heatiness gua...
well goodbye to yesterday and look forward to the future.....

well....well...in the end...

well...well...6 months have passes so fast......who knows we break up afterall....
her little bro at april 29 told me tat she have a new bf in sabah le.....well...
so just yesterday i ask her if is true anot......
it turns out to be true afterall....so i just let her go..as long she is happy everything is good eough..
thanks for the memory we share.......i hope u will be happy....
at least this way everything will be better....rather then i be a stupid fool tat is beeing cheated.....
well .....at least we are still friends....