Resurrection (Chapter Fear)

Its happening again...How did I keep ending up in a half asleep half awake state recently?....Its that dream again....Maybe its due too being half awake I can remember it clearly....tat feeling...like being watch...being cursed...It all started after that genting crash....I have fear to drive my car alone now.....always checking the horn...and highlight...it seems so real....always end when I manage to break...but...every time it happens I always awoken suddenly with my heart beating extremely fast that is hurts...what is this feeling....I'm...really scare...it feels like it is directly in me...showing me....it does not feel like I'm latched on too...but it feels like being cursed....It hurts....I'm really scare...this is fear...help...Is this a physiological disorder or supernatural at play....I dunno...

Resurrection (Extra chapter moonlight memoria)

The sky tonight is a very clear one as all the stars are abnormally beautiful yet visible. But the one that kept me questioning was the moon...it was abnormally mesmerising yet sinister...what is this feeling in my chest my heart?...i woke up not knowing what i dreamt for the past few days...yet it seem so real...like i was waking from a dreams dream?and yet nothing remains...this feeling...hmm...

I have no idea...but..i am sure of a thing...that is something missing I'm forgetting something very important but what is it?this feeling...as i look up to the distant sky...unable to shake off the heavy feeling...yet i am content...seems like it was right..if we choose to do so and wish to do so...the result will be what we wanted so everything is really in our head...hehe...i hope...i can see clearly...what is it about...i want to now the truth...what is it that i have forgotten...living in the present and moving forward seeing the possibilities and opportunities around...optimistic yet sensitive. Put full trust orelse dun trust at all just like the moon that shines. :)

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Resurrection (Last chapter The lost star and the last star)

Human will always seek perfection to satisfied their desires...By chasing after something which doesn't really exist but refuse to admit it as it will show how foolish the person is...and so this is the lost star...a star that never really existed but people believe in its existence hence the name lost star...
We are often confronted by our emotions to make decisions this emotions will stir up a war within our insides...but when we finally make up our mind can we be sure our sub concious and concious are the same?
What we know our concious is only 5% of ourselves the remaining 95% are our sub concious the part we do not know but is ourselves. Blindly chasing after something that I believe its real...to no ends will this be how my life going to be? chasing after a lost star?
Problems and solutions are all just our imagination. This means everything we see now is what we sub consciously created we wanted it to happen so it happen. As humans we will always face troubles and problems but when we are able to cope with it and clear the trouble we are relieve so I'm saying all these is what we actually created ourselves. I'm grateful and happy for those who cared for me and worried for me during my times of crisis and problems. Everyone have their own mindset their own world their own troubles therefore one cannot be perfect without going through this trials...and so...thanks for supporting me...but the problem are cause by me in the first place so it is going to me to destroy this problem. And the same concept apply to all of us.
Patience is not something you can take for granted it takes time and the right people only then you can wait together with them. People with the same mindset will lump together that be the norm but if you are going to accomplish great legend to success you must be the one to be able to galvanize others and implant your ideas and dreams too others only then it will come true. A dream will never come true if you have no one to support it or build it, but no matter how impossible is the dream is if you are able to implant it and galvanize other too see the same vision as you it will come true for it is all in our mind.
And so the story of the last star tells us that no matter how desperate or defeated we are...if we believe truly and do not give up it is ours to take...the star that does not exist will appear...as the last star. Even if it will be the last..what important is it stays in our heart forever...and that is call "Memory of the Heart".
Even if I will eventually disappear or be lost or forgotten...but the times we go through will always remain i will always be in the "Memory of the Heart" of those who hold me dear and they too will remain in mine.
Go forward and never look back...I will always be in everyone heart when you need me no matter where I am whether i exist or i dont...because i will always exist in the hearts of those who trust me.
This would then resurrect the life that is lose. Thus resurrection.

The End 

Resurrection (Chapter 2 Price to pay)

Nothings change nothings gain...everything will only continue to go in circles rounds a vicious cycle that will never end. Yet my empty mind keeps floating off on its own...
Is it accepting the truth or running away from the truth....will this shell remain empty or will it be fill?...
Help...I'm really lost...

Resurrection (Chapter 1 The falling)

how laughable...indeed is funny...Really what the heck is all this?
Just like this something in me snapped...what was i doing the whole time?
Yeah that is the sound of my concious snapping...I really lost hope for anything already..
I'M really sick of this world...really fedup...really tired...screw everything...
Can you realize or see the eyes that have no soul in me? a smiling face but a body with no soul?
Falling in to deprivation.

Resurrection(prologue)

The more we know the more we know we dont know
If eveyones rejects and despise my existence
where would you all be? :)