Downfall

How and why could such thing happen?...is so unfair...but i think i have overpush my limits of my body...its going to fall soon how much longer?haha 1st time tyre punchered speechless experiance for a P driver like me~

Rain..cold

I use all my energy to bat those ball...it felt good...but now muscle pain....heavy rain...felt nice...5 min like that...now...haha no idea...cold...

Binding.broke.bonds

Yesterday was a good day but towards the end...everything started to change...mentally i was flank from every side....i brokedown...i cried...i shouted...pain...everything that has gather right until then...was all erupted at once...my own voice was drain in pain of loss and sadness...i do not mind if i was discrimatd,hated,distrusted...but please dont drag my friends into it too...if u do not trust that much?then wat is the meaning of living...fine i know is my wrong...but there isn't need for such harsh words....i was tottaly blank...but luckily there was people who came and save me...i was very glad...gratefull...i let this breakdown be a lesson for me...and move on i live in the past for far too long...its time to wake up and face it head on...i dont wan to run anymore...thankyou ;)
I hope the best for u too may ur suffering go away and brave enough to do what u want u can do it ;)
Onwards.

I clear it up at last...words that i wish to say...there is nothing more i can do...all is a memory now...its enough for someone like me...back to usual...u can do it...Its enough...everything...
All my happiness will be a distant fairy tale that i chase...sorry thank you goodbye...

White day

14 of march Today is white day a day like valentine where the boys give reply to girls that give them chocolate on 14 feb valentine day and every chocolate have their meaning: White chocolate means I love you, Dark chocolate means Im Available,Cookie chocolate means Im taken. Sadly this is not practice anywhere but in japan only T~T....But still is a reply day....When can i hear ur true voice...your true reply...but I think that is something impossible...Now i only wish our relation will return to when it was back then...Wat actually happen?...why so sudden...Is our relation only till that day?the place where it all started where we bonded....then now that place is no longer here...so our relation disappear too?I dont get it...So now what am I to you now?I really wonder...All that's left is for time to decide...but yet again...I wish time could prolong longer...I do not know when...but I guess is unavoidable...If then I still watch over you over the moon and stars and everyone else...A smile something that can hide one sadness tears that will never be seen...Darkness that envelops the hearts...
Happy White day...As I lie on the sofa and think...this is where memories of you are closests to me...come back....i miss u

weak

Haiz I really sui pei...why so weak?...But then again there isn't much time left...I want to spend as much time with them. Its worth it.. :)

Resolve

There is nothing i can do abt it hope tmr turn out fine :)...i miss you...so near yet so far....our distance...after talking and bonding this few days i know...will i be brave enough?....Anti love...maybe i be one very soon...congratz another cousin wedding le now i and my same age cousin are the next in line...kacau d==...where are you..when i needed u :( sry i know ur busy...im too selfish...I so bad ah..so is my resolve strong enough...even if im the worst...i'll protect those dear to me...im willing to stain my hands to protect them...