a new beginning.... =D

finaly.....1 year have pass.....so quickly....2010 have already come to an end....wif tat many partings n farewell have pass this year....now its time for a new year....2011 its here......i have gain many invaluable things this year :D....n also have lost some invaluable things to me.....somethings can never meant to be forever i guess><......now a new year have arrive providing new challenges on the way.....its time to move on :).....towards a new world XD.......may the darkness tat have completely seal off my heart of 2010 be seal away n the reborn of a new heart for 2011 to begin a new life =D....let the past be a past...perfect the present ur in now...to create a great future;)....may this be a new n good year to everyone!!! HAPPY READY GO!^^HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE^^

HAPPY READY GO!!

If I overtake the shining wind
I'll surely meet you, right?
A new shine, HAPPY READY GO!!

I just woke up, about to split from the throbbing
packed in my breast pocket, I looked up at the sky
playing with my bangs in the mirror
I want to run through with an original smile

A thump a second, these tinted days
will become a map to the future, a fast throbbing

I wonder what will I be waiting for
Even if it's raining I'm fine, It'll become a rainbow
Colorful Happy Material GO!!
I'll surely meet you, right?
let this little courage bloom

If you're careless, you might be late to your dream
Pure and right, But first try it out!
The recipe is good, but spice is essential
Hold your head high and go! Full power!

Girls feelings are totally backwards, bittersweet feelings
Special spirits split open my heart♪

If I jump to my dream
Will I be able to take it?
Before you worry, do the things you can do!
Colorful happy material GO!
Matching shimmers
I want it to reach you HAPPY READY GO!!

If I overtake the shining wind
I wonder what will I be waiting for
Even if it's raining it's still fine, It'll become a rainbow
Colorful Happy Material GO!!
I'll surely meet you, right?
let this little courage blossom
I want it to reach you HAPPY READY GO!!

A heart.....

today....bak to school le....to go get result.....dam tired....ytd around 4 30 like tat almsot to 5 only slept then 7 nid wake up d....so darn tired.....then neo n i go to mamak stall n eat breakfast.....ordered a teh tarik to hopefully keep myself awaks for the next few hours....(dint work out well by 11 ady tired bak><)then walk to school to tell my daughters to inform me when gather at dewan.....then walk to tan hse...to rest....fall a slpzzzz.....around 10 40 get a call then tan mom fetch us too school.....go dewan aspirasi.....wait result...call out all pelajar cermelang><(mostly anggerik nia only 1 cempaka zaim u rock!!><) fell happy for them....at the same time...this emptyness in my heart starting to build up....then see le result....get 4A 3B....wow....a result i never expected i could get....few very satisfied.. :)...suppose to be happy...but cant.....some prb....then see my maths A....well....not bad from D to A haha ok ba >< BM can actually get B shocked nia><
keep in my bag....then saw something....in my bag.....haiz.....nowonder....now i know why d....why i dint reali have any emotions for the results...haiz............after tat...just continue to try to act happy n watch movie wif tan,neo,cs,zhi kit n kar meng.....after watch finish....go home then when to shower~for 20 min nia~my longest record.....haiz....why why.....why cant i....haiz....be4 dinner now better go out to get some air ba....stop here...... :)

conclusion......(satisfy with my result although is a last min effort><....)tat's all......

time passes

2 weeks have pass officialy......all i hope now is tat we could laugh n chat like normal friends....u dont know how important u are to me....friends... :)

Lie...

Haiz...who am I kidding...ever since tat day...i am just living in a self made illusionary world tat keep telling myself everything was ok n perfect :)..when everything for me was not ok...but I still enjoy seeing everyone happy......but all I can do now is keep living in this world always lying to myself~...i reali need you...i miss you...but wat to do??only can just keep lying to myself....

pain~

since this morning wake up.....right eye very pain all red...cant open properly....so just close it almost whole day...n use left eye to see only....so weird==".....not just tat when wake up.....leg cram...n somehow i dont know how la...i scratch dao own face....near my face the chin there all red...n got scratch mark T_T...walau...dont know how i kenna de...dam...last week n this week....body so weak..dont know why...haiz....i hope can get a medicine to cure this....too bad no medicine de.....haiz...~white blood cell gambateh T_T.....haiz...emotions...really a hindrance~ :(

because you'r here...

Although the world in my dreaming eyes seems so beautiful
I recall my doubts, so can a person become a coward?

When we shared a laugh together, we were so alike
Even trivial lies were kindly overlooked

It doesn't matter if we've no place to return to
Because I'll protect that smiling face

There are countless meetings and partings...
I don't want to lose it all
Now it's okay, it seems I don't need a thing
I just want to gaze beside you
Joy and sorrow and everything

Little by little, I've forgotten those times growing up
There's honesty at any time in my heart

I've taken pieces of courage from you
And I give the blooming flower in my heart only to you

My overflowing tears have taught me
I mustn't let everything slip away
That time remains in my heart
Your smiling face, like the sun,
Makes me so much stronger

There are countless meetings and partings...
I don't want to lose it all
Now it's okay, it seems I don't need a thing
I just want to gaze beside you
Joy and sorrow and everything

Let's start from here and now
Let's begin our tomorrow together
Let's keep our feelings as they are
Like flowers shaken by the summer wind,
Let's bring this moment to full bloom now

Memories...

The 3rd day le...i look horrible><....haiz...memories...how I wish I have amesia now...sleeping just became the hardest thing to en...everytime I close my eyes memories start flooding in my mind...then my Shang Fung will come XP...haiz...life is so troublesome~lucky still have friends...:)

tomorow will be better :)

ppl always say n tell me it is imposible...but i never belive it...n chase my seemingly fairy tail dreams.....but now i know wat it all means....how silly of me to be so childish thinking everything will be going as i plan><....haha....ytd is a past...all those sad n happy memories will remain in my memory forever....for u will always be my 1st true love :) ....tomorow will be better forget yesterday....n grow up to face the real world victor ;)

counciouns....

night ady....im trying to hold on to my counciounsness for as long as possible....fainted 2 time today....1st at morning...tat is almost...faint...whew......2nd...afternoon...i endure till my limit...to talk to u....then rush into room...wham...blank le out of counciouns for 1 and the half hour......my head have been hurting the whole day....haiz...should not be so emotional...forget it will trigger it....~now my dam ucleur is hurting like hell...start to cant speak properly le....dint even eat dinner today...no selera for makan...n to Pain!..pain dao.......today...dec 1....time flies so fast....new year in another 30 days...wow......dec 1...2010...a day..tat i will rmb for quite some time.........my heart is hurt badly...still feel sad when i think abt it....i reali hope u can find it bak............for a broken heart is not easy to fix....i dont wan to lose u...plss come bak to me soon.....haiz.. T_T....worse day in my life...