2/18/03 luckless??

Today I quite late wake up around 7 45 late jor~@@so i rushed and pack my bag grab a white bread and drive off to school luckily traffic today not vry bad reach school 8 40 late 10 min fine~~then break time I only found out i lupa bring wallet...GG..@@ Hungry...nvm tahan!!@@ then tahan dao 3 30 finish school~go to anime club board of director interview~wow most informal interview ever but fun ppl...then 5 15 le ok nid rush to 1u for tuition jor...ran down...when wan exit..only found out i drop my student ID and season pass!!ran back up lucky got someone help me pick up :) tqtq..save~~then while i walk up the stairs to the car park..a giant moth size bigger than my head fly straight at me give me a shock and i fall down~LEG CHAO GAN! then a little dizzy le@@ again fa zuo le...pain...after like 5 min only i climb bak up go to car...(they should really let my card able to sit lift~keep nid climb ladder quiet and empty de scary~...to make it worse as soon as i drive out it started raining heavily...i take a short cut and when i wan turn out i only found out shit!no wallet how cross toll??i quickly check my car change place..lucky got ngam ngam 3 10 enough for the 2 toll i passin~~whew~~then the rain still rain heavily...doom...i take the wrong turn...turn dao to midvalley tat side tat road...GGzzzz~~then as i pass its toll use le 1.50...1 60 left...LDP toll....oh noo...I had to cancel tuition le cant make it...after jamming for like 2 hours + i reach home....my stomach pain and hungry like hell...feel like wan faint..as soon as i step out of the car i fall down~leg luan le~cham lo...eat dao half way...stomachache...no wei kou eat le...wow...wat a day??@@....Forget wallet end of the world~who say no money no problem?no money big problem...what a streak of misfortune today...

retribution

Valentine have pass...and I fail to muster my courage to deliver my feelings to your heart...I think...its true I could never be blessed with such good thing as love instead suffer worse each time...I'm such a fool...I saw your happiness at that moment...and I knew I had no chance...I have never been able to touched your heart...
Its a nice day of visiting around with friends....but...The side of me I never wanted to let anyone know...Its been awhile and been more recent that it happen...a piercing pain on my chest...I do not know what cause it...but it hurts...until I fall...I feel bad...but I do not know how to solve this sickness....
Time flows...and I notice...I've sunken into darkness....Its me who have change...I see everyone so happy it makes me happy...but at the sad?I hope I could go back...I want to laugh and be happy with everyone...I want more time....Please...even if I suffer...I wish everyone could be happy...Its a retribution I have to pay....I'm really left out....I wan to climb back up....but how...?

Anger

Its been a long time I've been overwhelmed by such anger...And it goes like this...

Finally back from college from the jam for 1 hour Its already 5 30 today tired~~

Then my mom told me later 7 nid fetch my sis fine...wat a drag fetch her then go guitar ba....take a short nap :) then my sis sms me no need fetch her.yessh!! can slp xD 6pm fall asleep...zzz
around 7...receive a sms that wake me up and says:later fetch me always after ur tuition at cassandra hse.FUCK??! Immediatly she call me...my sis...call me go fetch her frm her best friend hse....!! DAHECK? U KIDDING ME?? SAY DONT NID THEN NOW COME BOTHER MY SLP AND ANNOY ME I SCOLD HER A MOUTHFULL THEN CUT HER PHONE...Eat anger dinner to calm myself then after fbing a while calm down around 8 ok time to go out guitar 8 30....call her and tell her that i will come pick her up now prepare.abt 10 min++ of jam reach damansara reach there...she's not there.....Ok great...Im already piss earlier i inform u d still not down?Im not ur taxi driver I not so free tq...phone her scolded her ask her come down anger meter: high...She take her own leisure time to come down like 10 min or so?? then when she come in the car i very angry mood...scold her again...she not feeling sorry or anything but instead argue and scold back...tsk....really pek cek d...drive...Beh tahan it continues as i drive...Slam my fist to my own leg.......calm ...continue to argue....then she punch me in the face...I cant control my anger le straight slap her...and she slap me back....almost ram to a lorry....fine ignore....silent war...drive at 100+ on damansara and 120++ on ldp....got highlighted got horn but too angry to care...almost ram to the corner while u turning the ldp...reach home open door ask her get lost....drive off to guitar class....with some jokes and chatting mood return back to good my guitar teacher is a pro after all and a idiot...one of the most geng student he have that is marry now that couple once quarrel while driving at the highway at 140++ then his wife tell him u argue again i open door n jump out...he say go ahead...and his wife really did it..dafuq?now that is scary anger luckily dint die but injured badly...now tat is scary...so my teacher tell me dun like his student...wow...fine I bear that in mind>< return home...
Now round 2 it starts...as i walk in to the house i good mood d so i plan juz go up play com :) enter house...mom stop me and ask wat happen....this is where it starts again....My sis drama queen crying over that say dao like I beat and slap till she half dead abuse...tears...coming out...and then argue again like i was wrong all.....ok boiling straight up...piss...argue back...lucky i got prove her sms...it was her that give wrong info anyone will get piss...and then still wan me wait when i go get her still complain GOOD!!...big war quarrel and quarrel...my dad...that spoil her...of course help her...so my wrong...but my mom saw my proof....well obviously she is the one..but she cant do anything....tsk...suan..i say sorry then say u so smart next time drive urself tq :) i stop car for u take keys walk out of the house...take a umbrella well its night...juz in case...as i walk out...it started to drizzle..then rain...great..umbrella....walk to my park playground wow...at night its really lonely and dark....walk to the swing...and play...swinging in the rain at night...I gotta be like a mad man==my head was spinning headache...then i fall off the swing...blackout a moment....head spinning...argh...leg pain...earlier i slam my own leg it have blue black...wow was i tat angry?....then i take of my slippers and walk the refisologi rocks or watever...after like 5 min....ok d...calm...fine...can d...the rain now only stop lol kidding me==??walk home....end of story...sis n dad sleeping d...then chat wif mom...told her my teacher story so dun quarrel wif dad dun jump off car><....bring blankets and lap top down...shower...ok to9 slp sofa... :) now abit dizzy and cold...I think i fallen sick@@...wow...think back i almost lose my life few times today due to extreme anger...never felt that piss for so long....now my leg 2 patch of blue black fail@@.....Anger outburst is truly scary....I dint know I can be this scary...thinking back...My scoldings could hurt anyone...its too true and anger...Must control...No more next time i could lost my life while driving in anger...So that is how bad I am...haiz...So to anyone reading this....careful of ur anger..u could lose alot...sorry.